Boy Meets World And More Boys

MOVED~!

2008-11-07T22:00:00.003+08:00

A NEW BEGINNING.

A brand new world,so full of hope.

=)

Because it's time to move on,and let live!

Moved to - > hewillbeloved.blogspot.com :)

Of Second Thoughts & Hesitation

2008-10-19T01:19:00.004+08:00

Yesterday i had a blast,met K,who was tall,not exactly good looking but my type of cute.He was damn into me weih...

He was the one who initiated everything,who hugged me,who touched me,who kissed me,who said i was damn cute,who kept caressing me,who kept harassing me,who kept playing with my hair...

And that was the first time ever i did not scold or resist when someone messed my hair up.

I fell asleep a happy boy.

I woke up,and then we met again at TS/SgWang.He's one of those really cool kinda guys,but when no one was looking her started putting his hand around me,touching around and stuff like that...

But inevitably,i keep wondering if he really likes me,or was he just being naughty...hmm.Cause i know i like him,and can probably falllllll allll theeee wayyyy innnnn for him.If i allowed myself la...

*Sighs*

Worst still...he just broke up with his ex,who's going to Australia.Not even a month yet,and the ex's leaving tomorrow.

His ex is damn bloody cute.Super bloody cute.The type of cute that i can't compete with.How to fight la.....

And i dunwannabe another rebound lover.Like Lion,my bloody last chibai ex...GRRR.Single all year long cause i can't let go of a stupid 2 month relationship.WTFFFF.

*Double Sighs*

Birthday next Sunday...but why do i keep having this feeling i'll end up sad and alone and wishing myself Happy Birthday?

Call me Baby!

2008-10-14T03:10:00.002+08:00

I had phone sex earlier.The last time i done it was seriously ages ago,and it's only the second time this year.

When we were moaning oh-so-hornily thru the phone,something he said really made me feel something i forgotten i could feel.

Loved.

He kept calling me baby..and treated me like one too...At that instant i realized how far i've come from being just plain lonely.

On the other hand,my bestfriend is a slutty lying cheating asshole.

Life is fine.

Me Boring Sober

2008-10-05T16:20:00.003+08:00

I am SO boring sober.

Last night i got pissed ass drunk.I arrived home drunk.AND woke up (slightly)drunk.Or is that what they call a hangover?

Duh,my parents know.

AND i am not proud.I never intended to get so drunk..i mean,im not saying i drank just a lil' bit,but i drank more than that before,and i didn't even get THAT drunk.

What im saying is,i did not drink THAT much.I think...someone did something to a drink i had.But i can't be sure..cause i was PISSED ASS DRUNK.

I also dont remember why i left my pants outside my house.

But funny...i get numbers when im drunk..i dance when im drunk..i socialize when im drunk..and all that jazzz lah.But ME BORING SOBER.

I got to know some people yesterday *winkwink* ,got some new numbers to stalk *coughcough* and and and and and..i vomit like shit lah. *ewweww*

I scared of alcohol liaw lah.I get all geli-ed(grossed out) when i think of vodka now.I'm literally shuddering right now.

BUT I REPEAT LA...i am NOT proud.I AM ASHAMEDD!!!!Not PROUD!!!

Sorry to all the people who had to take care of me yesterday night.Specially to Cols,S *winkwink* and KK.

To Cols cause i vomited in ur car and u sent me home,to S cause....ahem..*winkwink* and to KK cause i know how much you hate me drunk,but yet u still took care of me while i was puking away....thanks!

I am NOT PROUD,i repeat!

I hereby swear i will not get as drunk as this ever again!(Unless it's a special occasion bla bla bla bla bla bla bla)

*

The night before that Nenlin went too.We had fun.Woosh woosh,end of story.

I am SUCH a disappointment.

Checklist?

2008-09-30T17:10:00.002+08:00

Cash,check(and then uncheck).
New clothes,check.
Sexapade,check.

But somehow life still sucks.

That sexapade i've been desperate for happened.Ok ok lor...Okay lah,it was awesome,but i didn't masturbate for quite a long period of time,about 4 days?

Maybe 4 days is like..a short period for you guys lah(or maybe you guys just old liaw) but i masturbate like...twice a day averagely?

Oh.And my record was 12 times a day :)

Of course, my poor lil dickie was all bruised out for the whole week after that.Didn't stop me from mast'in again,tho.

Tragic.

Denial

2008-09-24T13:49:00.001+08:00

Unfortunately,this is a very dead blog.

This will just go into my 'blogs-that-died' pile and archives.

Life is boring,aside from running away from home,constant vodka and emotional roller coasters.

urgh.

*

I admit,that i never admitted i loved you.Whenever you brought that up,i constantly deny that possibility.I only admitted that i liked you.Big,big diff.

Today,i finally had enough courage to ask(to me it felt more like confront) you about that msn nick of yours that stated you were in love.I don't believe it was me,for i am not good enough.I got your answer alright,and i realize the state i've been in.

DENIAL.
I've been in denial.

I thought i didn't care lah.I was so casual about it even,i surprised myself.Your answer was not something i expected,but rather something i told myself to expect,something i braced myself for.It wasn't the answer i was hoping for,duh.

But it's okay.Feel kinda torn,but i guess i hope you'd be happy(better one then two sad! :]) and that this time,he's good enough for you!

Boomboomkachoo

2008-09-06T10:11:00.001+08:00

Im alright,okay..until i read your blog,again.

Sometimes i still feel like theres a secret out there,something to have to do with me,and everyone knows it but me.

Then again,i'm too paranoid.

=\

Picture Of You

2008-09-04T13:32:00.003+08:00

I saw your picture.

Then i remember how i used to write your name,over and over again,and smile to myself because i can't concentrate doing anything else.

Silly times!

I won't give a damn about you anymore from now on.I realize tho we're still the same in many ways,we've changed too.

You're no longer the person i once love.At least,not completely.And i don't think you still habour feelings for me anyway,so this post is just really syok sendiri lah.

=]

This is not about someone expected.
This is for the first love i ever knew.

p/s: im not emo.

xD

2008-09-04T13:23:00.003+08:00

I have honestly no idea why i am still blogging here.I don't think anyone who doesnt read my other blog actually read this anyway =\

Anyway...my hair is gone.And i am now shit ugly. =]

No more clubs for a while now.No more sex too.(That that i had ~~much~~that much to begin with)

Don't judge me!

Im getting bored of this blog.

One Night One Day

2008-09-01T13:49:00.002+08:00

I had one night in bliss,and one day in heaven.

Melacca was awesome!(Nevermind the troubles i took to get there) and i came back to go out with him(clickable!).

Which ended on a shitty note at night,after that heavenly day.Of course.

I thought that after all this while,i'll've become immune to this thinking-too-much-till-it-hurts shit.But of course not!I've never been relieved of this,not even a little the entire time.Why would i be immune to it now?

I will not let this pull me down.I will not lie to myself any further.I'll be fine.I'm allowing myself to cry,but by tomorrow i'll get over this.

=]

Like wtf.

2008-08-28T22:45:00.001+08:00

I'm homeless now.

Haha.My mom found out i skipped school on Wednesday.She forced me to quit school and go work.

But then,i said i had the right to study and so she said fine.But i havta stay at my aunt's house.

That's fine with me.I'm more excited than sad,really.

Finally i can stop living under the pressure and expectations of everyone just cause of how rich and successful my parents are!

Yay!

Seriously...i only want the simple things in life.

When you're rich you'll see life differently.

I hope.

Me 16 ; Not Stupid

2008-08-28T00:58:00.002+08:00

DU-the fucking-LAN.

Why is it that every fucking smart guy sounds like a total idiot in front of me?

ARE THEY ACTING STUPID?Or am i just too stupid to comprehend?

But,i got an answer from one of em' today.

Apparently,because i am 16.(well,technically i've got 2 more months to go..but thats besides the point!)

Apparently,i am too young for them to actually have decent conversations with.

YET,they have no problem with repeated penetration.

)(#*$#_*%(*$_+#(_+(_+!!!

p/s:By THEY,i mean two,or three.In the past year until today.I'M NOT PROMISCUOUS!!!

p/p/s:...yet.I mean,i dont plan to be promiscuous..but like i said,you never know.I surprise myself more and more as the days go by.

Nights!

Skinny Jeans Suck

2008-08-27T01:05:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to question the hotness i felt for the past few days.

Either my hair is starting to grow wayy too long,or i need to stop wearing shapeless clothes on normal days even if the only people who'll see me are my blackbutted sister and my blackskinnied maid.

I so neeed to buy skinnier clothes NOW!

:p

But NO SKINNY JEANS.Phucking ugly.

Of Ignorance And It's Bliss

2008-08-26T21:33:00.003+08:00

I'm not sure,but i think i know it now.

I pretend not to care,i pretend not to bother..but the truth is,i care too much.

If this is the cost of being happy,so be it.

*

I always said that ignorance is bliss.

I never realized how much the guilt costs me.

But it's alright.

Worth it.

Words That Induce Quotable-ness

2008-08-24T17:47:00.003+08:00

Personal Attacks :

G says:
bye bye big face

K says:
bye bye big boobs

Retorts of self-defence:

G says:
they've shrunk

K says:
im still hot

Nonsensical Remedies:

G says:
go die

K says:
go die-t.

p/s:i'm K,like duh.

Potential!

2008-08-24T04:35:00.002+08:00

Just got back from clubbing.Awesome!

There was a kinda cute guy.Not your typical cute,but cute in his own way.Just then way i like it.

The kinda cute guy was smart.
The kinda cute guy who was smart was also tall.
The tall and smart kinda cute guy wasn't skinny.
The tall and smart kinda cute unskinny guy spoke such decent english.
The tall and smart kinda cute unskinny english speaking guy called me cute.

The tall and smart kinda cute unskinny english speaking guy who called me cute is going back to London to study for two more frickkin' years next month!

GERAM!!!!

ARGHH 430985r0-59832=5832=059438=5-823=-21808i-=218312=4832=-!!!

Sorry.Just felt like swearing in numbers.Urgh.

Imma go bath and sleep now.Tired,man. =]

p/s:only two shots tonight.Vodka and Tequila.Yum.

One Night Of Heaven

2008-08-22T21:20:00.003+08:00

My asshole outdid my life in terms of excitement.

Okay,not really.Haha,just really wanted to say that.But really..has it come to the day that my asshole is SO busy that i refer to it as a completely different entity then myself?

Shocking,really.I sound so smart.

I outdid my record man.Never did i had SO much sex,in such a short period of time.I had sex thrice,with two different guys.Yeah...that's my definition of SO much sex.

Okay,the only thing i remembered about the first guy is four fingers and lotion..but the second guy was....urm...

Actually,i have no idea how to rate sex.Haven't had enough of it-yet-to give an honest opinion.Need to ask Janny/TehFamousNobody about that.He's a pro.

But the night was just heavenly la..i think,it wasn't just the aggressive sex that made it feel that way.It was the whole night,of me sleeping and someone hugging me.The warmth of human embrace.

Oh BOY how much i miss it.It's been 8 fucking months since my fucking fucking asshole ex that i've had a night like this man.

And for the whole night,until the time we parted as he stopped one stop before me on the lrt,i felt cared for.

He asked if i was comfortable man.
He woke up in the middle of the night to cover me with the blanket...and his legs and arms,man.
As we left the house,he asked if i was hungry man.
On the lrt,awkward me kept on stumbling and almost falling and he was always there to grab me before i fall.

I realize how desperate i must sound.But i've already accepted this,that it was a one night only thing and i WON'T EXPECT ANYTHING MORE.

The dream is over.It's time to wake up.But boy....do i miss you.

PARK TAE-FUCKING-HWAN!!

2008-08-19T23:40:00.001+08:00

As from one of my post a ~~few days~~wayyy back(i started this post ages ago but never found the time to complete it),it's kinda obvious i don't care for the Olympics right?

But now,i do.One reason....

PARK TAE-HWAN!!!!!!

MY GOD lah he is so fucking ADORABLY HOT!!!!!!!

NEVER HAVE I SEEN SUCH A PERFECT MIXTURE OF HOTNESS + ADORABLENESS + ~~FUCKMEABLE-NESS~~ BEFORE!!!!!!!!!!!

He isnt your typical hottie.He's not the usual hot,pretty boy but he has this adorable charm about him.Especially when he smiles ;)

Remember when i said i aint obsessed with LinDan?

Duh.I'm obsessed with Tae-Hwan.Afterall,i amwas a swimmer too :)

LOVE LOVE LOVE.

Park Tae-Hwan is Korea's and probably one of the world's brightest shining star in the swimming arena,as seen on Olympics.

Finally,swimmers can have someone unugly to idolize and swimming can be represented by someone with a presentable face!!

BLAh,sure,Hwan lost to Micheal Phelps..but who the fucking hell cares man.Micheal Phelps looks just like he swims..a fish.

And seriously,if we're to encourage more people to start participating in swimming,we need someone hot,and i daresay that someone doesnt look like a donkey ass either.I mean,guys and TheyWhoHaveVaginas will swoon over Hwan so much that they'll all flock to learn swimming!

Okay,maybe not all of them will start swimming but it'll yield better results than if Phelps was the face of swimming.

I mean..GOD!..He looks more like the ambassador of shitface aliens then swimming.

Duh,there is nothing wrong with being ugly,or less than hot.But the world is superficial and i have decided to join the world.

Therefore,sorry Phelps but u can't compete with Park Tae-Fucking-Hwan.

OH.Don't ask me whatever happened to Ian Uncle Thrope.

All i know is that he retired liaw and for all i fucking care he died.

PARK TAE-HWAN FOR THE WINN!!!!!! :)

Dan dan dan dan!

2008-08-18T21:03:00.003+08:00

Yesterday something was worth my while(besides Park Tae-Hwan *swoooon*) to watch teh Olympics.I'm sure all of you know what i'm talking about!Everyone was SO talking about it!!

That's right!I was watching ~~LinDan!!!~~ Badminton!!

More specifically,~~LINDAN!!~~ Lee Chong Wei VS LINDAN!!!! 's match.

ChongWei was so dissapointing.Halfway thru the second match,my entire family went and played MahJong instead cause winning was a confirmed lost cause liaw.I mean,8-0..like DUH??

But i kept on watching ~~LinDan~~anyway.At the end of it,i was quite happy altho we lost..i mean,at least we're still silver ma... =] ChongWei did a great job,regardless if he won or lost.

Lindan on the other hand........... >: )

Never thought i'd enjoy watching ~~Lindan jump,shout,act macho~~Badminton SO much.

I AM NOT OBSESSED!!

Anyway,enjoy these pics of him!! ^^

*swooooon*

NO,i am NOT obsessed.

OH did you know LinDan changed the shuttlecock 8 times in the first match alone??!!~~I counted!~~

I AM NOT OBSSSESSSSSSEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDan.

Drunk

2008-08-17T15:27:00.003+08:00

I went clubbing yesterday again.I stole a bottle of Absolut Vanilla from home and emptied half of it into a tiny little bottle.

Before i entered La Queen,i took a gulp.It didn't work so i took another gulp.And even then,i still didn't feel its effects yet so i took a HUGE gulp.

It was then that i realize the bottle was almost empty and i've really drank alot.Gosh.But at that point,the alcohol started to take effect and everything turned to ecstasy.

IT WAS AWESOME MAN!

I don't remember what i did or said most of the night,but i remember it was so totally fucking awesome.

It's really amazing and ecstatic to get drunk...for me.

But i realize how much it sucks for my friends..cause they have to deal with me(on alcohol summore) and send me home later.

I started become more sober in the car,where my friend said :

Don't take me for granted.The next time you're drunk you're not getting in my car.

Total wake up call,man.And by wake up call,i also mean slap-on-the-face.

There's so much i could say,so much i can say and so much i could say.But i won't.

I didn't realize im taking you for granted.I'm sorry.Thanks for dropping me home anyway.Sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry!

Digressing....yesterday waS AWESOMEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

In the mood for a lil' horny rhyming.

2008-08-15T01:26:00.004+08:00

tonight i feel a little obscene
i hope when i sleep i get a wet dream
where nothing is really like how it seems
oh Tae-Hwan where have you been....?

there is nothing disgusting
of the desire for sex
when exotic turns erotic
you'll feel something reflex

beneath the table
above the chair
opposite the ass
among the hair(s)

so tell me now
hows my erotic rhyming
the viagra works WOW
what perfect timing

i hear the sounds of doors opening
i know that that's my mummy,she's coming!
i better do it quick,rush rush rushing
OH finally..i'm done cumin'.

*

Contrary to popular belief,i am not really that into sex.I mean,i like it and all,but i'm just fine keeping myself holy(or as holy as i can be xD) till my next boyfriend comes.

I wasn't horny lah.Just felt like rhymin'.

EH.IT'S NOT WEIRD TO WRITE HORNY POEMS OKAY.Just eccentric.I'm eccentric,remember?

Bus Bus So Damn Fast

2008-08-14T13:41:00.002+08:00

Today was good.

By good,i mean i skipped school and went around doing nothing,aside from taking random buses up and down.

I love taking buses.Just sitting in them,closing my eyes and listening to music.Even better,with a book...and some fries.

I don't have to talk to anyone in the bus.I can just sit there,and pretend to be asleep and watch the world pass by.

Yeah.You got me right.I skipped school to spend 5 hours riding on random buses with no destination.

Eh,it's not weird okay.It's eccentric.

*

Finished Damaged.

It's really good.You know how some books have reviews that say 'it'll grip you tight and you can never put it down since the start?'

No shit.I cried at the end of this book to..so you know it's good :p

Rating : 4.5/5

I went to Borders yesterday to get Eclipse,the 3rd installment in the Twilight series to quench my addiction.Unfortunately,they only had Breaking Dawn.

I ended up buying The Kite Runner instead.A friend told me that it made him cry.Therefore,it is my kinda book.

I'll start on it later.I realize how much reading drains me emotionally.I better take a break first.

This Love Has Taken It's Toll On Me

2008-08-13T00:43:00.008+08:00

'You do realize that if you go on and on telling yourself how hopeless you are you're just gonna make yourself more depressed,right?'

Duh

But it satisfies me when i do feel depressed.At least if i believe all those reasons i'd have a right to be emo.I mean,how many months can i continue moping around being depressed wearing a black face using the same reason,right?

It's not like i didn't get the chance to start over.There were many chances,i just couldn't hold on to them.There's nothing wrong with my world,it's perfectly perfect.

The problem is with ME.

It's time to stop denying..but have i really denied it?

****This is what listening to Chamomile(or however you spelt it)'s CD can do to you..emo emo emo.Or maybe it's just me.

I wrote a letter.

With it,i included explainations,apologies,your old shirt that i stole,the book you borrowed me and all the things i bought for you,for me while we were still...us.

I'm not asking for another chance...at anything.Not friendship,not love,not nothing.I just don't want us to end on such a sour note.

I mean..remember how it all started?

The times i kept rolling around under the covers in your bed..while you looked at me and laughed everytime i did my puppy eyes..and then proceeded to hug me and cuddle together afterwards.That was the best.

I will never forget,but i'll try not to remember too much too..

Sometimes love just ain't enough.Especially the slightly more one-sided,a lil bit unmutually equal variety.

I hope this is seriously,the last time i have to make a conscious decision to close this wayy overdue chapter of my lifeless life.

It's been too long.

P/s:Haha btw your shirt still has some of your smell left :p

OH...i just finished NewMoon...Shit...imma start reading Damages soon..but.....i desperately wanna go buy Eclipse and Breaking Dawn tomorrow.I'm addicted d.

Aren't they so pretty?(Besides being all worn-out despite being only less than 7 days old each -_-!)

I realize how empty my life would feel without this series...without Bela,without Edward(Two main characters).I've grown so attached.I felt myself reliving every emotion i've lived through,and every emotion they go through.

And yeah.The picture at the top of this post is me disgustingly smelling my ex's shirt.Big bloody deal..everyone does it!

Or not.I dunno you.

2008-08-11T00:33:00.001+08:00

This blog now sounds like some overdramatic chaplang teenage hormone fuelled blog with one too many ex-es and used condoms.

HOW?????!!!

Dangerous

2008-08-11T00:05:00.004+08:00

Sometimes,when i'm not barraging myself under a life so full...of life,i tend to just do nothing.

And it sucks.Cause when i do nothing,i start thinking.Remembering things that are forbidden to recall,yet i don't want to forget.

Every little bit of me pushes the thought of you and every damn related thing away...every single time.

But it's been so long...so long since i last allowed myself to remember.

I still remember the first time we had sex.It was also my first time.I remember feeling so sure that,i love you and that you love me,without doubt.

I was naive,young(er),ignorant.And carefree.I've always thought ignorance is bliss.

That was before the point of my life where i couldn't afford to trust people anymore.Before ex ex ex ex later.

I remember how you refused to finger me first...and you just went in slowly.I remember the sharp pain,inch by inch as it went deeper and deeper inside.

After a while,it didnt hurt that bad anymore,and it became rather enjoyable.I remember worrying if you went soft and that i ruined the mood for you cause i was too whiny towards the pain.

I remember that stupid S.H.E. concert video you put on while i just napped,while you hugged me.I remember getting sweaty and feeling hot,but i didn't dare move an inch cause i feared i would never,ever feel this comfortable,this safe,ever again.

I remember all the stupid things that made me decided to end it with you.

I remember meeting with you months later,and to have more stupid things make me pull myself away.

I remember suddenly this year,seeing you again in living colour.You lost weight.Your hair is now just..plainly black.No longer the deluge of colours it once was.

I remember realizing i missed and longed for someone else more than you.

And then i realize,the only reason i didn't say i still love you was cause i didn't love you enough.I missed someone more,and i couldn't possibly start it all out with you again on that terms.

But i wished you knew,all the reasons i did,behind the things that i did.

I wish you knew,how much your coldness hurts.

I guess first loves just don't fade away.Despite missing Lion(my last ex) more.

But i promise,i won't miss you tomorrow.I won't allow myself to let the memories flood through again.Both of us have changed..reality is different now.

You were my first love,
I never knew love;
Till there was you..
From the bottom of my broken heart.

-From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart,
Britney Spears unslutted.

.......................

2008-08-09T21:57:00.001+08:00

Adrian [陳嘉朕]- says:
haha
Adrian [陳嘉朕]- says:
aite dude, have fun dreaming about a perfect love life
Adrian [陳嘉朕]- says:
i am off to party

.......asShoLe.

Nick Snider Isn't THAT Hot...right?

2008-08-09T03:08:00.000+08:00

Today..a friend told me(rather hysterically) on msn that Chris Crocker was once together with Nick Snider.

And then,after going crazy about what Chris's got in his asshole that he doesn't,he started spamming me repeatedly about how hot Nick Snider is,about how he's the face of Prada..Calvin Klein..etc etc.

So i asked him....'Eh...Who is Nick Snider??'

I swear he could'ave fainted on the spot if he wasn't so up to showing me how amazin'ly how Nick Snider is.

He then proceeded to send me links to pics of Nick Snider.And i checked them out,expecting some drop dead gorgeous model hottie.

Instead,i got this....

|||

VVV

'He looks kinda retarded.'

My friend,in horror,quickly replied with a long,loud,Noooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

And then continued sending me other pics of him..and up till a certain point i asked him..'Is he posing the same pose in ALL the pics or does he has a natural down-syndrome look?'

He told me that Nick is just posing seductively.(There is nothing seductive about looking retarded)

Out of ideas,he told me to watch his videos.And i did.(retardicity)

*

Nick Snider isn't THAT hot...right?

I mean....i'm no one to judge..seeing how you'll never see MY face on this blog but still....maybe my taste is different..maybe i'm one of the few who don't find down syndrome attractive..

But stilll.......is he really that hot??

I don't understand.Maybe i need a new set of eyes.

I Love Sports

2008-08-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

Just had this stupid conversation in my father..:

Eh..that's the olympics??
I didn't know.

Yea.Today olympics.
U dunno meh?

I didn't know.

8 of 8 of 08 ma.
How can dunno..

I didn't know.

Don't you read any news or watch tv or something?

I didn't know.

......

WHAT..i really didn't know ma..

...............................

Boy do i love sports.And all the hilarities that come along with it.At the expense(or annoyance) of others...or not.

P/s:No prize for guessing which colour belongs to me.

Not-So-Straight Afterall.

2008-08-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

Lemme tell ya'all a story about this dude i knew last year.

When the rumours of me being gay(spread around thanks to my 'bestfriend') were heard by this certain dude,let's call him D for Donkey,he came up to me and told me to be normal,and to be straight,and to not be influenced by the media/blabla the usual don't be gay crap.

I was throughly annoyed by this(i already spent two whole years since puberty trying to change myself) and decided to ignore and block him.

But,throughout the rest of the year he kept on persisting in chatting me up once a month.And we would talk just fine until he started on the subject of the G to the A to the Y.

Then we would both get annoyed with each other and the conversation would end on a rather agitated note.(Well,more agitated for him,more sarcastic for me.)

Then finally,during the holidays last year,he stopped contacting me altogether.And i thought i was done with annoyance.*good feeling sinks in*

Unfortunately,this year my class shares PE(Physical Education) with HIS class.DOOM.Good feeling gone.

I tried avoiding him alot altho i know he's been trying to talk to me.Keeps finding many many chances to approach me when i was alone.I mean,gimme a break,i don't even have a vagina.

Finally yesterday,he caught me alone in the QM's toilet during PE.He,just walked up to me as i was preparing to roll my eyes and walk out,and kissed me.

YEAH you heard right.KISS me.Right there on the lips.

You know,this feels like one of those erotic fantasies i've always had.Hot,tall,atlethic senior comes in the room in short shorts and turns to me to give me a kiss and take my breath away.

Yeah sure,D did take my breath away.Only he wasn't a hot,tall,atlethic or even a senior.In fact,he was short,pimple faced(wayy worst than me) and just plain flabby.

A kiss is fine,really.But don't you start GROPING ME IN THE SCHOOL TOILET WHILE PEOPLE MIGHT WALK IN ANY SECOND.

I was like,'DO YOU EVEN THINK?!'

Apparently,he can't think straight(no pun intended) when i'm with him.

I'm not so agitated about all that i crapped above,just kinda annoyed that he spent one whole year talking me out of being gay and HERE HE IS,attempting to finger me.

Then again..maybe i should take this as a compliment.At least i'm fingerable.

Nothing like sexual harassment to boost my self-esteem (:

I Won't Be

2008-08-07T20:54:00.000+08:00

Look..

I'm sorry i'm not smart enough.
Sorry i'm not cute enough.
Sorry i'm not tall enough.
Sorry i'm not nice enough.

Sorry for everything that i'm not.

You'll never read this,i know that.But if you do one day,i would like to say that i'm apologizing..but not to you.

I'm apologizing to myself.

How many more scars do i need to learn my lesson??

Not-So-Secret Rendevous.

2008-08-07T16:18:00.000+08:00

In the last post,i said something about a book called Eclipse.Well,when i said Eclipse,i actually meant Twilight!

And OH-ME-GOD!

READ! (Click to enlarge)

SO my kinda book.Now,if only the main character didn't have a vagina....thats such a turn off.

*

Went to OneU/Curve/DarkHill/RandomDrivingAround yesterday.My first time sneaking out on a weeknight.

Didja know Starbucks is open till 1am?!

You did?Oh. =\

Oh.And about the aforesaid DarkHill in the list of locations,nothing happened while we were there.We just talked,while sipping our Starbucks.

It was only till when we reached outside my house that we started making out and hugging and cuddling.

!!

Anyway.....i had 2 hours of sleep and woke up at 6 to head for school.The whole day was screwed and yawn-ful.

Now,i think i'm sick.And everyone should just shut up about the yellowish shit i have in my nose!!

Just cause it doesn't freak you out,it freaks ME out.

Wait,let me get this straight...we were on a really dark and scary hill and we just talked about stuff and didn't even touch each other but here we are outside my house and we're making out like crazy??

Seems so.

Sometimes I Hate Superwoman

2008-08-06T17:16:00.000+08:00

I slept late yesterday.

Woke up today,as usual the van took me to the school but i did not enter it.Decided to go to the mamak and chill with my ipod (read : lousy lagging phone which plays music) and my new,haven't-unwrapped book.

The book's Eclipsed,and everyone is raving on and on about how awesome it is.Hopefully,it's not overrated.So far,it hasn't disappointed me yet.I can imagine the gorgeous perfect hunks already.(Not so much the vagina-people,tho.)

Then,went to CC and DotA-ed a few rounds.Couple of kids from the opposing team tokcock-ed,resulting in a very heated argument.SO heated,in fact that one of my team members even stepped out to search for the cocktok-ers.

I glanced around,expecting to see a macho-macho man type of guy,with rugged hair and typical straight look features.Instead,the only one guy around was a tall,nerdy,bespectacled guy with a fringe that covers 87% of his small face.

Lesson : Never expect too much from someone who uses the name '@sshol3'

Left for MidValley later,meeting up with Ju for lunch.Explored Borders.

The real Bush Tragedy is that Ju forgot to shave.

Me and Ju saw something that redefined the wayy a 'real woman' looks like in our heads.

I had always imagined a tall,strong-willed woman who can accomplish anything wearing 5 inch heels and a tight wonderbra.Whenever someone says 'Real Woman',thats the image that immediately floods my head.

I think i watched too much SexInTheCity =\

But now,that picture of confidence is replaced by this:

My waist is smaller than ONE of her tights man.That is saying,ALOT.

Oh..and she says i look hot fucking the wall~

*

I bet alot of you(which is practically zero since no one knows about this blog anyway) are wondering what relevance does this post's title has to this post.

Wellll...my aunt gave me a ride home from MV(sometimes she goes there for work stuff),we had our usual talks.

She told me she got a new phone,and that at first she asked my mum if she could pay by installments,as all the other staff can anyway.(yea my mum has a small handphone business)

My mum just said 'If you ain't got no money,don't learn people buy phone!' (direct translation from cantonese) in her usual loud voice.In front of Elly,a family friend and in public.

This was the same woman who was 'hurt real bad' when my dad's ex wife(WHO IS NOT MY REAL MOTHER) told her 'If you ain't got no money,don't learn people get married!' (again..direct translation).

Sometimes my mom is SO hypocritical.(Family trait?)

But of course,i still love her.Just that i can now rant this out and no one will ever know who my mom is cause i'm anonymous!Hey,this is fun!

And i really do love my mom.She's still Superwoman.

But even Superwoman makes mistakes =]

How Do You Start A Blog?

2008-08-05T23:37:00.001+08:00

I've started many blogs before,and typed wayy lotsa posts,yet i always face this dilemma whenever i start a blog.

How do i write the first post?

Do i write more about myself,about what i'm gonna blog about,or what?An intro?Of how this blog came to be?

Okay.I'm turning 16 this year,and i'm ur typical gay boy who's still in secondary school.AND YOU CAN BET IT'S DRAMATIC.

Basically,i'm just done censoring and talking in codes on my very-public-whole-school-is-viewing-me-blog.

Therefore,inspired by Joey,i decided to start this blog.

And 3 hours later,i'm done with the template(HTML is SUCH a bitch) and this blog is ready to be filled with memories(some explicit) and words of wisdom(?).

Hopefully,the comment function works fine.(COZ HTML IS SUCH A BITCH.)