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Thursday, August 28, 2008Like wtf.I'm homeless now. Haha.My mom found out i skipped school on Wednesday.She forced me to quit school and go work. But then,i said i had the right to study and so she said fine.But i havta stay at my aunt's house. That's fine with me.I'm more excited than sad,really. Finally i can stop living under the pressure and expectations of everyone just cause of how rich and successful my parents are! Yay! Seriously...i only want the simple things in life. When you're rich you'll see life differently. I hope. Labels: emotional outburst Me 16 ; Not StupidDU-the fucking-LAN. Why is it that every fucking smart guy sounds like a total idiot in front of me? ARE THEY ACTING STUPID?Or am i just too stupid to comprehend? But,i got an answer from one of em' today. Apparently,because i am 16.(well,technically i've got 2 more months to go..but thats besides the point!) Apparently,i am too young for them to actually have decent conversations with. YET,they have no problem with repeated penetration. )(#*$#_*%(*$_+#(_+(_+!!! p/s:By THEY,i mean two,or three.In the past year until today.I'M NOT PROMISCUOUS!!! p/p/s:...yet.I mean,i dont plan to be promiscuous..but like i said,you never know.I surprise myself more and more as the days go by. Nights! Labels: BOOOOOM Wednesday, August 27, 2008Skinny Jeans SuckI'm starting to question the hotness i felt for the past few days. Either my hair is starting to grow wayy too long,or i need to stop wearing shapeless clothes on normal days even if the only people who'll see me are my blackbutted sister and my blackskinnied maid. I so neeed to buy skinnier clothes NOW! :p But NO SKINNY JEANS.Phucking ugly. Labels: randomshits Tuesday, August 26, 2008Of Ignorance And It's BlissI'm not sure,but i think i know it now. I pretend not to care,i pretend not to bother..but the truth is,i care too much. If this is the cost of being happy,so be it. * I always said that ignorance is bliss. I never realized how much the guilt costs me. But it's alright. Worth it. Labels: emotional outburst Sunday, August 24, 2008Words That Induce Quotable-nessPersonal Attacks : G says: bye bye big face K says: bye bye big boobs Retorts of self-defence: G says: they've shrunk K says: im still hot Nonsensical Remedies: G says: go die K says: go die-t. p/s:i'm K,like duh. Labels: randomshits Potential!Just got back from clubbing.Awesome! There was a kinda cute guy.Not your typical cute,but cute in his own way.Just then way i like it. The kinda cute guy was smart. The kinda cute guy who was smart was also tall. The tall and smart kinda cute guy wasn't skinny. The tall and smart kinda cute unskinny guy spoke such decent english. The tall and smart kinda cute unskinny english speaking guy called me cute. The tall and smart kinda cute unskinny english speaking guy who called me cute is going back to London to study for two more frickkin' years next month! GERAM!!!! ARGHH 430985r0-59832=5832=059438=5-823=-21808i-=218312=4832=-!!! Sorry.Just felt like swearing in numbers.Urgh. Imma go bath and sleep now.Tired,man. =] p/s:only two shots tonight.Vodka and Tequila.Yum. Labels: goin out, LIKE WTF MAN Friday, August 22, 2008One Night Of HeavenMy asshole outdid my life in terms of excitement. Okay,not really.Haha,just really wanted to say that.But really..has it come to the day that my asshole is SO busy that i refer to it as a completely different entity then myself? Shocking,really.I sound so smart. I outdid my record man.Never did i had SO much sex,in such a short period of time.I had sex thrice,with two different guys.Yeah...that's my definition of SO much sex. Okay,the only thing i remembered about the first guy is four fingers and lotion..but the second guy was....urm... Actually,i have no idea how to rate sex.Haven't had enough of it-yet-to give an honest opinion.Need to ask Janny/TehFamousNobody about that.He's a pro. But the night was just heavenly la..i think,it wasn't just the aggressive sex that made it feel that way.It was the whole night,of me sleeping and someone hugging me.The warmth of human embrace. Oh BOY how much i miss it.It's been 8 fucking months since my fucking fucking asshole ex that i've had a night like this man. And for the whole night,until the time we parted as he stopped one stop before me on the lrt,i felt cared for. He asked if i was comfortable man. He woke up in the middle of the night to cover me with the blanket...and his legs and arms,man. As we left the house,he asked if i was hungry man. On the lrt,awkward me kept on stumbling and almost falling and he was always there to grab me before i fall. I realize how desperate i must sound.But i've already accepted this,that it was a one night only thing and i WON'T EXPECT ANYTHING MORE. The dream is over.It's time to wake up.But boy....do i miss you. Labels: AllStringsAttached Tuesday, August 19, 2008PARK TAE-FUCKING-HWAN!!As from one of my post a But now,i do.One reason....  PARK TAE-HWAN!!!!!!MY GOD lah he is so fucking ADORABLY HOT!!!!!!! NEVER HAVE I SEEN SUCH A PERFECT MIXTURE OF HOTNESS + ADORABLENESS + He isnt your typical hottie.He's not the usual hot,pretty boy but he has this adorable charm about him.Especially when he smiles ;)            Remember when i said i aint obsessed with LinDan? Duh.I'm obsessed with Tae-Hwan.Afterall,i LOVE LOVE LOVE.   Park Tae-Hwan is Korea's and probably one of the world's brightest shining star in the swimming arena,as seen on Olympics. Finally,swimmers can have someone unugly to idolize and swimming can be represented by someone with a presentable face!! BLAh,sure,Hwan lost to Micheal Phelps..but who the fucking hell cares man.Micheal Phelps looks just like he swims..a fish.  And seriously,if we're to encourage more people to start participating in swimming,we need someone hot,and i daresay that someone doesnt look like a donkey ass either.I mean,guys and TheyWhoHaveVaginas will swoon over Hwan so much that they'll all flock to learn swimming! Okay,maybe not all of them will start swimming but it'll yield better results than if Phelps was the face of swimming. I mean..GOD!..He looks more like the ambassador of shitface aliens then swimming.   Duh,there is nothing wrong with being ugly,or less than hot.But the world is superficial and i have decided to join the world. Therefore,sorry Phelps but u can't compete with Park Tae-Fucking-Hwan. OH.Don't ask me whatever happened to Ian Uncle Thrope.  All i know is that he retired liaw and for all i fucking care he died. PARK TAE-HWAN FOR THE WINN!!!!!! :) Labels: celebitchies, PARKTAEHWAN, randomshits Monday, August 18, 2008Dan dan dan dan!Yesterday something was worth my while(besides Park Tae-Hwan *swoooon*) to watch teh Olympics.I'm sure all of you know what i'm talking about!Everyone was SO talking about it!! That's right!I was watching More specifically, ChongWei was so dissapointing.Halfway thru the second match,my entire family went and played MahJong instead cause winning was a confirmed lost cause liaw.I mean,8-0..like DUH?? But i kept on watching Lindan on the other hand........... >: ) Never thought i'd enjoy watching I AM NOT OBSESSED!! Anyway,enjoy these pics of him!! ^^   *swooooon*NO,i am NOT obsessed. OH did you know LinDan changed the shuttlecock 8 times in the first match alone??!! I AM NOT OBSSSESSSSSSEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDan. Labels: randomshits Sunday, August 17, 2008DrunkI went clubbing yesterday again.I stole a bottle of Absolut Vanilla from home and emptied half of it into a tiny little bottle. Before i entered La Queen,i took a gulp.It didn't work so i took another gulp.And even then,i still didn't feel its effects yet so i took a HUGE gulp. It was then that i realize the bottle was almost empty and i've really drank alot.Gosh.But at that point,the alcohol started to take effect and everything turned to ecstasy. IT WAS AWESOME MAN! I don't remember what i did or said most of the night,but i remember it was so totally fucking awesome. It's really amazing and ecstatic to get drunk...for me. But i realize how much it sucks for my friends..cause they have to deal with me(on alcohol summore) and send me home later. I started become more sober in the car,where my friend said : Don't take me for granted.The next time you're drunk you're not getting in my car. Total wake up call,man.And by wake up call,i also mean slap-on-the-face. There's so much i could say,so much i can say and so much i could say.But i won't. I didn't realize im taking you for granted.I'm sorry.Thanks for dropping me home anyway.Sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry! Digressing....yesterday waS AWESOMEE!!!!!!!!!!!! Labels: goin out, oh-em-geee Friday, August 15, 2008In the mood for a lil' horny rhyming.tonight i feel a little obscene i hope when i sleep i get a wet dream where nothing is really like how it seems oh Tae-Hwan where have you been....? there is nothing disgusting of the desire for sex when exotic turns erotic you'll feel something reflex beneath the table above the chair opposite the ass among the hair(s) so tell me now hows my erotic rhyming the viagra works WOW what perfect timing i hear the sounds of doors opening i know that that's my mummy,she's coming! i better do it quick,rush rush rushing OH finally..i'm done cumin'. * Contrary to popular belief,i am not really that into sex.I mean,i like it and all,but i'm just fine keeping myself holy(or as holy as i can be xD) till my next boyfriend comes. I wasn't horny lah.Just felt like rhymin'. EH.IT'S NOT WEIRD TO WRITE HORNY POEMS OKAY.Just eccentric.I'm eccentric,remember? Labels: no shit im amazin Thursday, August 14, 2008Bus Bus So Damn FastToday was good. By good,i mean i skipped school and went around doing nothing,aside from taking random buses up and down. I love taking buses.Just sitting in them,closing my eyes and listening to music.Even better,with a book...and some fries. I don't have to talk to anyone in the bus.I can just sit there,and pretend to be asleep and watch the world pass by. Yeah.You got me right.I skipped school to spend 5 hours riding on random buses with no destination. Eh,it's not weird okay.It's eccentric. * Finished Damaged.  It's really good.You know how some books have reviews that say 'it'll grip you tight and you can never put it down since the start?'No shit.I cried at the end of this book to..so you know it's good :p Rating : 4.5/5 I went to Borders yesterday to get Eclipse,the 3rd installment in the Twilight series to quench my addiction.Unfortunately,they only had Breaking Dawn. I ended up buying The Kite Runner instead.A friend told me that it made him cry.Therefore,it is my kinda book.  I'll start on it later.I realize how much reading drains me emotionally.I better take a break first.Labels: MyInnerNerd, randomshits Wednesday, August 13, 2008This Love Has Taken It's Toll On Me 'You do realize that if you go on and on telling yourself how hopeless you are you're just gonna make yourself more depressed,right?' Duh But it satisfies me when i do feel depressed.At least if i believe all those reasons i'd have a right to be emo.I mean,how many months can i continue moping around being depressed wearing a black face using the same reason,right? It's not like i didn't get the chance to start over.There were many chances,i just couldn't hold on to them.There's nothing wrong with my world,it's perfectly perfect. The problem is with ME. It's time to stop denying..but have i really denied it? ****This is what listening to Chamomile(or however you spelt it)'s CD can do to you..emo emo emo.Or maybe it's just me. *  I wrote a letter. With it,i included explainations,apologies,your old shirt that i stole,the book you borrowed me and all the things i bought for you,for me while we were still...us. I'm not asking for another chance...at anything.Not friendship,not love,not nothing.I just don't want us to end on such a sour note. I mean..remember how it all started? The times i kept rolling around under the covers in your bed..while you looked at me and laughed everytime i did my puppy eyes..and then proceeded to hug me and cuddle together afterwards.That was the best. I will never forget,but i'll try not to remember too much too.. Sometimes love just ain't enough.Especially the slightly more one-sided,a lil bit unmutually equal variety. I hope this is seriously,the last time i have to make a conscious decision to close this wayy overdue chapter of my lifeless life.    It's been too long. P/s:Haha btw your shirt still has some of your smell left :p * OH...i just finished NewMoon...Shit...imma start reading Damages soon..but.....i desperately wanna go buy Eclipse and Breaking Dawn tomorrow.I'm addicted d.  Aren't they so pretty?(Besides being all worn-out despite being only less than 7 days old each -_-!) I realize how empty my life would feel without this series...without Bela,without Edward(Two main characters).I've grown so attached.I felt myself reliving every emotion i've lived through,and every emotion they go through.  And yeah.The picture at the top of this post is me disgustingly smelling my ex's shirt.Big bloody deal..everyone does it! Or not.I dunno you. Labels: emotional outburst, lionrawrs Monday, August 11, 2008This blog now sounds like some overdramatic chaplang teenage hormone fuelled blog with one too many ex-es and used condoms. HOW?????!!! Labels: randomshits DangerousSometimes,when i'm not barraging myself under a life so full...of life,i tend to just do nothing. And it sucks.Cause when i do nothing,i start thinking.Remembering things that are forbidden to recall,yet i don't want to forget. Every little bit of me pushes the thought of you and every damn related thing away...every single time. But it's been so long...so long since i last allowed myself to remember. I still remember the first time we had sex.It was also my first time.I remember feeling so sure that,i love you and that you love me,without doubt. I was naive,young(er),ignorant.And carefree.I've always thought ignorance is bliss. That was before the point of my life where i couldn't afford to trust people anymore.Before ex ex ex ex later. I remember how you refused to finger me first...and you just went in slowly.I remember the sharp pain,inch by inch as it went deeper and deeper inside. After a while,it didnt hurt that bad anymore,and it became rather enjoyable.I remember worrying if you went soft and that i ruined the mood for you cause i was too whiny towards the pain. I remember that stupid S.H.E. concert video you put on while i just napped,while you hugged me.I remember getting sweaty and feeling hot,but i didn't dare move an inch cause i feared i would never,ever feel this comfortable,this safe,ever again. I remember all the stupid things that made me decided to end it with you. I remember meeting with you months later,and to have more stupid things make me pull myself away. I remember suddenly this year,seeing you again in living colour.You lost weight.Your hair is now just..plainly black.No longer the deluge of colours it once was. I remember realizing i missed and longed for someone else more than you. And then i realize,the only reason i didn't say i still love you was cause i didn't love you enough.I missed someone more,and i couldn't possibly start it all out with you again on that terms. But i wished you knew,all the reasons i did,behind the things that i did. I wish you knew,how much your coldness hurts. I guess first loves just don't fade away.Despite missing Lion(my last ex) more. But i promise,i won't miss you tomorrow.I won't allow myself to let the memories flood through again.Both of us have changed..reality is different now. You were my first love, I never knew love; Till there was you.. From the bottom of my broken heart. -From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart, Britney Spears unslutted. Labels: bearbear.., emotional outburst Saturday, August 9, 2008.......................Adrian [陳嘉朕]- says: haha Adrian [陳嘉朕]- says: aite dude, have fun dreaming about a perfect love life Adrian [陳嘉朕]- says: i am off to party .......asShoLe. Labels: randomshits Nick Snider Isn't THAT Hot...right?   Today..a friend told me(rather hysterically) on msn that Chris Crocker was once together with Nick Snider. And then,after going crazy about what Chris's got in his asshole that he doesn't,he started spamming me repeatedly about how hot Nick Snider is,about how he's the face of Prada..Calvin Klein..etc etc. So i asked him....'Eh...Who is Nick Snider??' I swear he could'ave fainted on the spot if he wasn't so up to showing me how amazin'ly how Nick Snider is. He then proceeded to send me links to pics of Nick Snider.And i checked them out,expecting some drop dead gorgeous model hottie. Instead,i got this.... ||| VVV  'He looks kinda retarded.' My friend,in horror,quickly replied with a long,loud,Noooooooooooooooooooooooooo. And then continued sending me other pics of him..and up till a certain point i asked him..'Is he posing the same pose in ALL the pics or does he has a natural down-syndrome look?' He told me that Nick is just posing seductively.(There is nothing seductive about looking retarded) Out of ideas,he told me to watch his videos.And i did.(retardicity) * Nick Snider isn't THAT hot...right? I mean....i'm no one to judge..seeing how you'll never see MY face on this blog but still....maybe my taste is different..maybe i'm one of the few who don't find down syndrome attractive.. But stilll.......is he really that hot?? I don't understand.Maybe i need a new set of eyes. Labels: celebitchies Friday, August 8, 2008I Love SportsJust had this stupid conversation in my father..: Eh..that's the olympics?? Boy do i love sports.And all the hilarities that come along with it.At the expense(or annoyance) of others...or not. P/s:No prize for guessing which colour belongs to me. Labels: randomshits Not-So-Straight Afterall.Lemme tell ya'all a story about this dude i knew last year. When the rumours of me being gay(spread around thanks to my 'bestfriend') were heard by this certain dude,let's call him D for Donkey,he came up to me and told me to be normal,and to be straight,and to not be influenced by the media/blabla the usual don't be gay crap. I was throughly annoyed by this(i already spent two whole years since puberty trying to change myself) and decided to ignore and block him. But,throughout the rest of the year he kept on persisting in chatting me up once a month.And we would talk just fine until he started on the subject of the G to the A to the Y. Then we would both get annoyed with each other and the conversation would end on a rather agitated note.(Well,more agitated for him,more sarcastic for me.) Then finally,during the holidays last year,he stopped contacting me altogether.And i thought i was done with annoyance.*good feeling sinks in* Unfortunately,this year my class shares PE(Physical Education) with HIS class.DOOM.Good feeling gone. I tried avoiding him alot altho i know he's been trying to talk to me.Keeps finding many many chances to approach me when i was alone.I mean,gimme a break,i don't even have a vagina. Finally yesterday,he caught me alone in the QM's toilet during PE.He,just walked up to me as i was preparing to roll my eyes and walk out,and kissed me. YEAH you heard right.KISS me.Right there on the lips. You know,this feels like one of those erotic fantasies i've always had.Hot,tall,atlethic senior comes in the room in short shorts and turns to me to give me a kiss and take my breath away. Yeah sure,D did take my breath away.Only he wasn't a hot,tall,atlethic or even a senior.In fact,he was short,pimple faced(wayy worst than me) and just plain flabby. A kiss is fine,really.But don't you start GROPING ME IN THE SCHOOL TOILET WHILE PEOPLE MIGHT WALK IN ANY SECOND. I was like,'DO YOU EVEN THINK?!' Apparently,he can't think straight(no pun intended) when i'm with him. I'm not so agitated about all that i crapped above,just kinda annoyed that he spent one whole year talking me out of being gay and HERE HE IS,attempting to finger me. Then again..maybe i should take this as a compliment.At least i'm fingerable. Nothing like sexual harassment to boost my self-esteem (: Labels: oh-em-geee Thursday, August 7, 2008I Won't BeLook.. I'm sorry i'm not smart enough. Sorry i'm not cute enough. Sorry i'm not tall enough. Sorry i'm not nice enough. Sorry for everything that i'm not. You'll never read this,i know that.But if you do one day,i would like to say that i'm apologizing..but not to you. I'm apologizing to myself. How many more scars do i need to learn my lesson?? Labels: emotional outburst Not-So-Secret Rendevous.In the last post,i said something about a book called Eclipse.Well,when i said Eclipse,i actually meant Twilight!  And OH-ME-GOD!  READ! (Click to enlarge)SO my kinda book.Now,if only the main character didn't have a vagina....thats such a turn off. * Went to OneU/Curve/DarkHill/RandomDrivingAround yesterday.My first time sneaking out on a weeknight.  Didja know Starbucks is open till 1am?!You did?Oh. =\ Oh.And about the aforesaid DarkHill in the list of locations,nothing happened while we were there.We just talked,while sipping our Starbucks. It was only till when we reached outside my house that we started making out and hugging and cuddling. !! Anyway.....i had 2 hours of sleep and woke up at 6 to head for school.The whole day was screwed and yawn-ful. Now,i think i'm sick.And everyone should just shut up about the yellowish shit i have in my nose!! Just cause it doesn't freak you out,it freaks ME out. Wait,let me get this straight...we were on a really dark and scary hill and we just talked about stuff and didn't even touch each other but here we are outside my house and we're making out like crazy?? Labels: hanggaigai~, randomshits Wednesday, August 6, 2008Sometimes I Hate SuperwomanI slept late yesterday. Woke up today,as usual the van took me to the school but i did not enter it.Decided to go to the mamak and chill with my ipod (read : lousy lagging phone which plays music) and my new,haven't-unwrapped book. The book's Eclipsed,and everyone is raving on and on about how awesome it is.Hopefully,it's not overrated.So far,it hasn't disappointed me yet.I can imagine the gorgeous perfect hunks already.(Not so much the vagina-people,tho.) Then,went to CC and DotA-ed a few rounds.Couple of kids from the opposing team tokcock-ed,resulting in a very heated argument.SO heated,in fact that one of my team members even stepped out to search for the cocktok-ers. I glanced around,expecting to see a macho-macho man type of guy,with rugged hair and typical straight look features.Instead,the only one guy around was a tall,nerdy,bespectacled guy with a fringe that covers 87% of his small face. Lesson : Never expect too much from someone who uses the name '@sshol3' Left for MidValley later,meeting up with Ju for lunch.Explored Borders.  The real Bush Tragedy is that Ju forgot to shave.Me and Ju saw something that redefined the wayy a 'real woman' looks like in our heads. I had always imagined a tall,strong-willed woman who can accomplish anything wearing 5 inch heels and a tight wonderbra.Whenever someone says 'Real Woman',thats the image that immediately floods my head. I think i watched too much SexInTheCity =\ But now,that picture of confidence is replaced by this:  My waist is smaller than ONE of her tights man.That is saying,ALOT.  Oh..and she says i look hot fucking the wall~* I bet alot of you(which is practically zero since no one knows about this blog anyway) are wondering what relevance does this post's title has to this post. Wellll...my aunt gave me a ride home from MV(sometimes she goes there for work stuff),we had our usual talks. She told me she got a new phone,and that at first she asked my mum if she could pay by installments,as all the other staff can anyway.(yea my mum has a small handphone business) My mum just said 'If you ain't got no money,don't learn people buy phone!' (direct translation from cantonese) in her usual loud voice.In front of Elly,a family friend and in public. This was the same woman who was 'hurt real bad' when my dad's ex wife(WHO IS NOT MY REAL MOTHER) told her 'If you ain't got no money,don't learn people get married!' (again..direct translation). Sometimes my mom is SO hypocritical.(Family trait?) But of course,i still love her.Just that i can now rant this out and no one will ever know who my mom is cause i'm anonymous!Hey,this is fun! And i really do love my mom.She's still Superwoman. But even Superwoman makes mistakes =] Labels: hanggaigai~, randomshits Tuesday, August 5, 2008How Do You Start A Blog?I've started many blogs before,and typed wayy lotsa posts,yet i always face this dilemma whenever i start a blog. How do i write the first post? Do i write more about myself,about what i'm gonna blog about,or what?An intro?Of how this blog came to be? Okay.I'm turning 16 this year,and i'm ur typical gay boy who's still in secondary school.AND YOU CAN BET IT'S DRAMATIC. Basically,i'm just done censoring and talking in codes on my very-public-whole-school-is-viewing-me-blog. Therefore,inspired by Joey,i decided to start this blog. And 3 hours later,i'm done with the template(HTML is SUCH a bitch) and this blog is ready to be filled with memories(some explicit) and words of wisdom(?). Hopefully,the comment function works fine.(COZ HTML IS SUCH A BITCH.) |
Xplicitly Me
I'm your not-so-typical-typical gay boy livin' in the big city - Selangor/Msia. Along the way hearts were broken , come and gone ; Words that hurt were spoken , and can't be undone. This is me, BARENAKED, NO HOLDS BARRED, so please bare with me. I'm complicated enough. Add GAY, BIG CITY, OVEREMOTIONAL and everything drama into the mix. that's me for you. p/s:Oh did i forgot to mention i'm only turning 16 this October? mail me bitches : loveloveloved@gmail.com * Bitch it out * Dirt Wayy Back Then
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