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Tuesday, September 30, 2008Checklist?Cash,check(and then uncheck). New clothes,check. Sexapade,check. But somehow life still sucks. That sexapade i've been desperate for happened.Ok ok lor...Okay lah,it was awesome,but i didn't masturbate for quite a long period of time,about 4 days? Maybe 4 days is like..a short period for you guys lah(or maybe you guys just old liaw) but i masturbate like...twice a day averagely? Oh.And my record was 12 times a day :) Of course, my poor lil dickie was all bruised out for the whole week after that.Didn't stop me from mast'in again,tho. Tragic. Wednesday, September 24, 2008DenialUnfortunately,this is a very dead blog. This will just go into my 'blogs-that-died' pile and archives. Life is boring,aside from running away from home,constant vodka and emotional roller coasters. urgh. * I admit,that i never admitted i loved you.Whenever you brought that up,i constantly deny that possibility.I only admitted that i liked you.Big,big diff. Today,i finally had enough courage to ask(to me it felt more like confront) you about that msn nick of yours that stated you were in love.I don't believe it was me,for i am not good enough.I got your answer alright,and i realize the state i've been in. DENIAL. I've been in denial. I thought i didn't care lah.I was so casual about it even,i surprised myself.Your answer was not something i expected,but rather something i told myself to expect,something i braced myself for.It wasn't the answer i was hoping for,duh. But it's okay.Feel kinda torn,but i guess i hope you'd be happy(better one then two sad! :]) and that this time,he's good enough for you! Labels: emotional outburst Saturday, September 6, 2008BoomboomkachooIm alright,okay..until i read your blog,again. Sometimes i still feel like theres a secret out there,something to have to do with me,and everyone knows it but me. Then again,i'm too paranoid. =\ Labels: emotional outburst, randomshits Thursday, September 4, 2008Picture Of YouI saw your picture. Then i remember how i used to write your name,over and over again,and smile to myself because i can't concentrate doing anything else. Silly times! I won't give a damn about you anymore from now on.I realize tho we're still the same in many ways,we've changed too. You're no longer the person i once love.At least,not completely.And i don't think you still habour feelings for me anyway,so this post is just really syok sendiri lah. =] This is not about someone expected. This is for the first love i ever knew. p/s: im not emo. Labels: bearbear.., emotional outburst xDI have honestly no idea why i am still blogging here.I don't think anyone who doesnt read my other blog actually read this anyway =\ Anyway...my hair is gone.And i am now shit ugly. =] No more clubs for a while now.No more sex too.(That that i had Don't judge me! Im getting bored of this blog. Labels: randomshits Monday, September 1, 2008One Night One DayI had one night in bliss,and one day in heaven. Melacca was awesome!(Nevermind the troubles i took to get there) and i came back to go out with him(clickable!). Which ended on a shitty note at night,after that heavenly day.Of course. I thought that after all this while,i'll've become immune to this thinking-too-much-till-it-hurts shit.But of course not!I've never been relieved of this,not even a little the entire time.Why would i be immune to it now? I will not let this pull me down.I will not lie to myself any further.I'll be fine.I'm allowing myself to cry,but by tomorrow i'll get over this. =] Labels: emotional outburst |
Xplicitly Me
I'm your not-so-typical-typical gay boy livin' in the big city - Selangor/Msia. Along the way hearts were broken , come and gone ; Words that hurt were spoken , and can't be undone. This is me, BARENAKED, NO HOLDS BARRED, so please bare with me. I'm complicated enough. Add GAY, BIG CITY, OVEREMOTIONAL and everything drama into the mix. that's me for you. p/s:Oh did i forgot to mention i'm only turning 16 this October? mail me bitches : loveloveloved@gmail.com * Bitch it out * Dirt Wayy Back Then
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